THE JOURNEY: Taking control of your life over the protests of your psyche can leave you in a position that only confuses things. A couple of things happened this week to make me reflect on how far I have come or not. I thought after a year and a half that maybe it was time to take off my wedding ring. My premise was that although I always thought that I would go to my own grave with this ring on, I never counted on Barb leaving before me. So I sit here and ponder what this ring means to me and what it means for the future. My current thought is that as I'm moving forward it reminds me of the past and I need to change that perspective in order to really let go. And so, in an attempt to be grown up, reflective and philosophical about material things and continue to fight for the new me, I make a stab at getting the ring off my finger. The problem is that no amount of vasoline, olive oil or tugging and pulling will relieve the finger of something that has been attached to it for thirty five years.
The other thing that happened was that I had my house cleaned by a professional. There is nothing wrong with that because without that kind of help my kids and I would be in over our heads. But, I noticed that she had switched all the utensils around in the drawer to be backwards of how they had been forever. My first thought was so what, just switch them back. How simple. Why would anything so ordinary bother you. You can hear the wheels turning in my head huh? On second thought moving ahead means changes in your life even if it is accepting the spoons are in the wrong place. And so, staying in the past or being in the future is not really the question. Acceptance of who you are now and how you relate to who you want to be is the issue. As I sit here and type this my spoons are still in the wrong or right place depending on perspective and my wedding ring is still on my finger. Life after a death can be as complicated or simple as you want to make it. What is really importan? Spoons, rings, staying in the past or stepping into the future.....what will be the perfect answer for you?


CLARITY


WITH THE JOURNEY COMES CLARITY
THE JOURNEY THROUGH DEATH INTO LIFE
IS LIKE COMING THROUGH A DARKENED TUNNEL
INTO THE LIGHT

AT THE POINT
THAT YOU HAVE REACHED THE END OF THE TUNNEL
TAKE A BREATH AND LOOK AROUND

CLARITY REQUIRES NOTHING
HE'S WATCHING AND HUGGING YOU WITH LOVE
IN HOPES THAT YOU WILL TAKE
THE STEP TO CLARITY