THE JOURNEY: What has the world come to. Watching "GLEE" and looking outside and seeing it pour. Man, what a lonely world it can be sometimes. I have to laugh at myself occasionally because without that it would be pretty pitiful. The thought of loneliness creates a picture in my mind that I really don't get. Growing up in Arizona I considered myself to be a loner with a few friends. Somehow that was OK with me. I knew that I was self reliant and everything in my life depended on me. My brother was older and we really didn't have anything in common. I did the traditional baseball, swimming, and getting blown out of the water by the female of the species. I worked from the time I can remember, so being busy was my way of never being lonely. I met my future wife when I was 20 and I can honestly say that loneliness was never in my vocabulary. While raising six kids, loneliness somehow gets converted into exhaustion. And then before I knew it, most of my kids were grown up and my wife was going down the slippery slope of illness. Loneliness started creeping in at that time but I don't think you are allowed that feeling because you're too involved in the day to day duties taking care of the love of your life. So then you go through the hardest thing you have ever faced. You start moving away from it over time and as you do that you realize that most of the time your kids have their own lives. Although you know your kids love you, you finally come to the conclusion that their energy rightly so revolves around other things instead of you. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, just growing up I guess. Maturity is a bummer. Anyway, as I sit here with the dog staring at me wondering what I'm crying about, I reflect on this empty house with all its history and express with the deepest sincerity.....Happy Mothers Day.
DOES IT MATTER
WHEN YOUR BEST FRIEND DIES
WHEN THE SUNSET IS BLUE
WHEN THE CROW FLYS BY
DOES IT REALLY MATTER
WHEN THE WALK IS FAST
AND THE PAIN IS SLOW
WHEN YOU REACH FOR HELP
WHY SHOULD IT MATTER
WHEN YOU TOUCH SOMEONES FACE WITH A SMILE
AND REQUEST TO STAY CONNECTED WITH YOUR WORDS
AND REALIZED THAT IT ONLY MATTERS TO YOU
SPEND A LITTLE TIME ON WHAT MATTERS THE MOST
SPECIALIZE IN THE MATTER OF THE UTMOST IMPORTANCE
THE MATTER OF YOU
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About Me
- MIKE RUSSELL
- Life long seeker of the truth. Created a great family in Oregon while pursuing a banking career.
So like while you are feeling blue on 20th Place on am feeling blue on Jefferson....so why aren't we connecting more often...I always feel like we will be intruding...but enough of that...We need to party dude! The whole empty nest thing is really strange. We need to get new hobbies....outreaches...something that makes us feel like we are a part of the action...are ya with me????
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